Garnet Grace

I want to thank everyone for their prayers and support as we lost our baby. We unexpectedly found out we were pregnant May 19th. We repeated a pregnancy test May 21st and then announced our good news. I was especially excited because we were due January 11th and I really wanted the baby (via C/section) on January 7th - my Mom's birthday. We only got to enjoy the baby for 1 week. Monday May 25th after dinner I began to bleed, I was seven weeks. We made some calls and had someone from our church here within 20 minutes - our driver arrived shortly thereafter and we headed to the hospital. One frustration was that it was so late in the evening - nothing could be done. We got a bed and had to wait until 8AM to have the ultrasound. They found nothing - no baby or sac. We were trying to get all the information to decide what our next course of treatment would be. We were scheduled to leave for a Medetteranean cruise on Thursday. During this time of trying to accept that our baby was gone Garnet seemed an appropriate name (January birthstone). After confirming with bloodwork that she was really gone - we decided to have a D&C to avoid any complications on our trip - even if it was just me feeling rotten.

I was crying in the surgery prep room and everyone seemed really surprised. The only thing I could compare it to was a funeral. I knew that the baby was gone - but this was the final goodbye. I remember waking up - still groggy and just sobbing.

My heart hurts that I can't ever see or raise this precious gem, but I know that my baby is in heaven. I live in a world cursed by sin, pain and death and my God does not glory in the pain that this curse brings. He is beside me grieving with me and I have chosen that I will glorify Him by my actions.